"I often wonder if it would have been better to just mind my business and keep on walking rather than try to help," Ms Connor tells Fairfax Media between the bars of a holding cell outside Denpasar District Court, where she is being tried for murder.

"If I did that I wouldn't be here."

Ms Connor, 46, has denied again and again any involvement in the death of Wayan Sudarsa, a Balinese police officer whose battered corpse was found with 42 wounds on August 17.

She insists she did not even see any punches being exchanged between Mr Sudarsa and her boyfriend, 34-year-old British DJ David Taylor, let alone participate in the brawl.

"I thought putting myself in between the victim was a way to stop the fight. I think I actually did [stop the fight] until the victim attacked me."

Ms Connor said her Christmas had been quiet.

There was a church service at Kerobokan jail – although she was scared off by the media trying to take photos – and Santa Claus visited two little children, who are allowed to live with their mothers.

"Christmas and New Year are just other days, it is hard every day," Ms Connor said.

"I am innocent and still I have spent the last four months in jail, far from my kids. I want to see them, hug them, be with them."

Despite desperately missing her two sons, with whom she is sometimes able to speak on the phone with her lawyer, Ms Connor does not want them to come to Bali.

"I don't think it is a good idea to see your mother behind bars," she said.

At times Ms Connor reaches through the bars and holds hands with her long-time friend, Ambra Bertoldi, who is supporting her in Bali.

Ms Connor said she had doubted Mr Sudarsa was a real police officer when he turned around and bit her after she tried to separate the fight.

"After Dave said he [Mr Sudarsa] was a fake policeman, I really believed maybe he was, because you don't expect a policeman to turn around and attack you."

Last month in court Ms Connor questioned whether Mr Sudarsa had been drinking on his shift after a report in the case dossier said his urine had tested positive for ethanol, an indication of alcohol.

"It was a weird reaction to attack us like this," she told Fairfax Media. "It is only supposition, I don't want to make an assumption."

Mr Taylor is being tried separately to Ms Connor, although they both face the same alternative charges – murder, fatal group assault or assault leading to death.

The British DJ has admitted to hitting the police officer with binoculars and a beer bottle, but insists he was acting in self defence.

Ms Connor has said she was searching for her missing handbag at the time and did not see the blows being laid.

However she "never doubted" Mr Taylor when he told her Mr Sudarsa has just "passed out" on the beach.

"It was just an exchange of punches. Also David had no idea this was such a serious outcome," she said.

Ms Connor says the couple were accused of running away after Mr Sudarsa's death but insists they were completely oblivious to what had happened.

Initially, police had been searching for Ms Connor, whose cards were found at the crime scene, and another man, who it was later revealed had not even been in Bali.

"They were not even looking for David," Ms Connor said.

"When I talked to my friends that's when they told me: 'You are on all the news, they found your card and now they are looking for you and [the other man]'. I was so confused and I couldn't put these two things together ... let alone that a person had died."

On August 19 Ms Connor and Mr Taylor went to the Australian Consulate in Bali.

"They said we have to go to the police to explain and I said: 'Of course'."

Ms Connor's trial was adjourned on Tuesday until next week after prosecution witnesses failed to show up.

She told reporters outside the court she was disappointed the case was taking so long.

"I just can't wait until everything is over and done and the truth finally comes out.

"I am worried because it is a different legal system but I want to believe the judges will be fair and will judge by the facts and the evidence and not by other influence and other pressures."

Ms Connor said she still loved Mr Taylor, who will soon testify in her own trial.

"I love him, I still love him," said Ms Connor, who has been photographed holding hands with Mr Taylor behind bars.

"I believe he is going to tell the truth about what happened."

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